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Christian Diaries – Not Anxious For Heaven

From a Living Single is on pause for a bit (I’ll explain in future blogs why) but that doesn’t mean the rest of my life has also stopped. So, I’m starting a new series called “Christian Diaries” which will include me “tackling” some mainstream Christian beliefs (some of them, my very own) while trying to shed some light on what I believe and why. Hopefully, during the process someone can begin to understand why I am so passionate about my faith and about people getting to TRULY know God for themselves.


Sings I want to make heaven my home. | When I get to the sweet by and by. | When we all get to heaven…|Beulah land I’m longing for you…

I could think of approximately 10 songs right off the top of my head that speaks to the hope we have when we get to heaven. Growing up in a Christian home and attending church most Sundays, I grew up hearing of all the wonderful promises heaven will bring when we all die and get there. It always seemed as if Christians were in a hurry to die so they could meet the Lord in the sky. I always found it slightly strange but when I became a Christian I found myself not only singing the songs but also having that longing to be done with earth and go home to “sweet rest”.

It wasn’t until very recently (within the last 5 years) that the realisation hit me: If we’re all longing and hurrying to be “caught up” who is going to do the work we were actually put on earth to do?

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So, after much contemplation and meditation I have decided that I am no longer in a hurry to get to heaven.

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Now, before you all start blowing up my inbox about how “unchristian” I am for not wanting to desperately go to heaven, let me explain.

I believe we should examine our reasons for wanting to get to heaven so badly that we sing about it, preach about it, pray about it, fast about it, evangelise with it, build towers to get to it and shout it from mountain tops in hopes that God hears and takes you up like Enoch.

  1. Hopelessness – As ironic as it is, usually when I start feeling as if I want to “Fly away home to glory” it’s almost always tied to depression. When everything in the world starts to feel hopeless and dreary one of my first instincts is usually to dream of the day when I don’t have to live with it anymore. If by any means this is your reason for wanting to get to heaven, you may need to seek professional help. (I’m not kidding.)
  2. Selfishness – Ooh, this one about to make me lose a few friends! Our number one commandment as Christians is to Love – Love the Lord thy God & Love your neighbour as yourself (paraphrased – [Luke 10:27]). Being a good steward requires us to follow this commandment, regardless of how we feel. If we love our neighbour as God has commanded how can we then leave our neighbour to struggle in the world as we know it? Being the “salt and Light” of the world does not only have to do with Salvation and living a pure life. Salt and light changes things. We are supposed to be world changers! How many people have you positively impacted since you’ve received salvation? Think on these things.
  3. Laziness – The only thing worse than death itself is premature death. Being cut off from life without your purpose being fulfilled is one of the most devastating things I can imagine happening to someone. For Christians to be desperately hoping to leave this world so they can sit at the feet of the Master only shows what most of the world thinks of us – we’re lazy. We don’t believe in putting in the work to see change happen. We believe in praying and starving ourselves and crying out to God for change, but for us ourselves to begin to move to create change is a foreign concept. Think about it, had the disciples stayed in Israel and prayed that the world be saved, how would we have known about Christ? They had to WORK. Yes, the prayed and yes they fasted but with that came the practical application of actually telling people of Christ. God does nothing without us in the Earth, so it is up to us to heed His directions and MOVE.

The truth is I am of no use to God through mankind in heaven. The earth is waiting for the Sons of God to arise. It’s time to start living as if you know without a doubt that the God of the universe lives within you. Stop waiting around for calamity or the second coming. It is up to US to change the world.

 

The views expressed in this blog are those solely of the owner of the blog and not of EVERY Christian or believer of Christ.

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From A Living Single: It’s not worth it

We exist in a society where being a single 20-something year old is almost seen as a crime. If you’re 21 and without a partner it’s seen as the start of your infinite doom.

And God forbid you make it to 25 without any prospect of being married within the next 3 years.

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People have actually begun tapping their watches at me at weddings. (Ya, the nerve…)

With so much pressure being placed on finding your “happily ever after” before 30, some may feel the need to lower their standard and give up some things they hold very dear to their heart just so they are able to trade being a satisfied single for an unhappy partnership.

But, before you start throwing out your moral compass, here are some things I believe you should NEVER sacrifice for a relationship.

  1. Your faith – I put this first because to me this is my most important will-never-give-up-for-any-man-any-time-anywhere-ever-in-life-thing. As a Christian, spirituality (not necessarily religion) is extremely important to me. My spiritual life is my anchor. Without it, without Christ, I literally don’t think I’d be alive. On a day to day basis my beliefs are what keep me sane. (Trust me, I tried doing this life thing without it and it literally drove me to see a therapist.) Faith is something I have to have in common with my significant other simply because it takes up such a crucial, significant portion of my life. I have come to the realisation that nothing on this earth (as I said, I’ve tested this…) could ever replace the peace and joy I get from my spiritual life. If my “happily ever after” means giving up what I believe in, miss me with that mess.

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2. Your morals – Now, contrary to popular belief, your faith and your morals are not the same thing – even though your moral compass is most times dependent on your faith system. Your morals are what help you decide what is right and what is wrong. This therefore dictates what is okay and comfortable for you, and what is crossing the line. How you go about your day to day life depends on your personal moral compass. If you begin to sacrifice this, you sacrifice who you are as a person. Unless this is for the better (making you a better person) it’s definitely not worth it.

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3. Your dreams – The older I get the more I realise some relationships aren’t meant to last, but more to teach you a lesson so your future relationships can be greater, evidently leading you to your life partner. In my last relationship, if we were to take things any further I knew I would have to give up everything I’d ever dreamed of becoming, to play a role of something I was not. I knew that because I loved him I was willing to sacrifice what I wanted, to become what he needed. (Side note: before I get attacked by the feminists, there’s a lot more to the story that I cannot get into than just some woman giving up her dreams for a man).

I also realised that years down the road, I would have been of no use to neither him nor myself because I would have been miserable trying to fulfill this role that I made a vow to fulfill, but not truly being happy with myself, life and in tern the relationship on a whole. Sometimes for everyone’s sake and sanity, it’s best you not forsake your dreams for a relationship.

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To many of you, these may not be important enough to sacrifice for a life that promises to fulfill all your romantic dreams, but for me if it’s going to cost me my sanity and my happiness, I’m fine without it.

I’m sure some of you are thinking that I’m missing a few crucial ones, so I’m inviting you to comment and let me know one thing you’ll never give up for a relationship and why. 🙂

As usual, thanks for reading!

xo Alee.

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From a Living Single: Love Can’t Pay the Bills…

“Love can’t carry me to the supermarket.” – Unknown

And indeed, truer words have never been spoken. Now, I already know many may disagree with me, or even dislike me after reading this blog, but again these are solely my opinions and you can either take it or leave it.

I remember once watching an episode of Tyra, and her topic was “Should you marry for love or money?” And a couple she had on the show stood out to me to this day.

The woman had admittedly gone into the relationship only because she knew the man was financially secure.

The man had gone into the relationship simply because she was smart and beautiful and he wanted a ‘PYT’ on his arm.

They had both agreed that this would be the dynamic of their relationship and hence if he ever went bankrupt she would leave him… interestingly enough he was okay with this.

They were married for some amount of years, had children and seemed to be quite happy with each other.

The wife admitted that she had never been physically attracted to him (she went as far as comparing him to a lawn gnome), but again the husband was totally fine with it.

Both parties were holding up their side of the bargain and it seemed to be working perfectly for them.

#RelationshipGoals or nah?

Before I continue I have one question for my readers: Would you marry for money? 

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  1. According to divorce.usu.edu one of the leading causes of divorce is the issue of money, more specifically “less income”. Though “less income” may not always be the case, if money is already an issue in your relationship it certainly doesn’t help if you’re broke. #JustSayin

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2. Being in love, broke and content is not necessarily a good thing. – If for whatever reason you’re both unemployed, your top priority should be trying to find ways to get out of that situation. If you’re in a relationship where you’re both happy and comfortable being unemployed because “all you need is each other” RUN.

Your spouse should be the person pushing you to be greater than you currently are, not helping you to settle into your mediocrity.

If this is the future you have to look forward to, you’re better off single and broke.

3. Don’t get married on a zero dollar bank account – When you said the words “I do,” the words that precede was a commitment to stand by each other through thick and thin. Though this is true, you shouldn’t be striving to start your marriage on the “thin.”

If by some unfortunate luck of the draw one of you loses your job, the other spouse should be able to pick up the slack without having too much of a struggle. Again, I’m not saying this as a rule, but it certainly does make the process easier and will give you one less thing to argue about.

4. Having said all of that, my forth, final and probably most important point is Money cannot substitute for love or happiness. If your goal is to marry for money ONLY, I advise you to pause and think about your life.

Though I believe you can grow to love someone (seeing as though love is an action first and an emotion after) you cannot force someone to love you. Marrying a man or woman for their bank account does not guarantee you respect, protection, affection or guarantee them to be good partners, parents or lovers – which are all very important in a marriage.

If being financially stable in a relationship is going to cost you your peace and happiness, is it really worth it?

 

 

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From a living Single: Honesty

It’s been a while since I’ve written any poetry or anything even relatively close, but I was thinking about my last blog and these words came to mind. It has no real form or scheme and I really didn’t intend for it to be a poem, so if it fails to sound like one, that’s probably why. I really had no intention of sharing this but I figured, what the hell…
These are just a bunch of thoughts I scribbled together.

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I have absolutely nothing to lose from being honest with you. I feel like a lot more of our problems wouldn’t occur if we were all like children: brutally honest. If we all said how we felt – not just for being rude and offensive, but simply because being truthful would make things so much clearer – we would escape many of the miscommunication issues we have.
My question is can you handle me at my unfiltered, unadulterated truth? Can you handle me bare, raw and honest?

If I told you I’m a Christian that doesn’t understand it all, doesn’t have it all together, and sometimes questions her faith, but is searching for answers and truth within herself, could you handle it?

If I told you all my insane ideologies – like how I believe we’re all one because we all come from the same source – The One – and therefore by hurting each other we ultimately hurt ourselves, could you handle it?
If I let you get a peek inside my mind at my thoughts on religion, sex, marriage, life, racism, feminism, politics, war, peace, Hope, eternity… could you handle it?

How about if you flipped the script and were open and honest with me? One hundred percent honest.
Would you be able to do that? Just lay it all on the table, no matter what “it” was? Would you be able to accept the challenge?

I believe that in honesty is where we find love. True openness and vulnerability is in honesty. Anyone can have sex, but not everyone is able to go completely naked before someone.

Could you?

If I asked you right now to strip away my covers with your words of truth, would you? If I asked you to wash me with soft kisses from your lips that draw only truth with every breath, would it be too much to ask? Or if I asked you to unlock my deepest parts and discover the secrets that lie behind the jewels stored, using your key of sincerity, could you?
If all this seems like too much to ask, then you’re simply not enough for me.

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From a Living single: #WasteHisTime2016

As I make this confusing, frustrating journey through my twenties, there are a few things I’d like to share with you, just so that you don’t:

(a) make the same mistakes I do and

(b) learn a thing or two about what a 23 year old in 2016 may experience.

So, buckle up, you’re in for a helluva ride! #FromALivingSingle

 

I’ve come to the realisation that people like to make life a lot more complicated than it really is. No, like seriously, I’m starting to wonder if we do it out of habit or spite. This time in particular I’m talking about the age old topic of romance.

Now, I know you think you’ve heard it all before and what I have to say may be nothing particularly new, but I want to take the time to remind people of simple things in relationships/dating that may make the entire process 50 times easier. Grab your pens and papers boys and girls, mama’s giving notes!

  1. Chivalry isn’t dead, but openness is. – I dare you to tell me I’m lying. Go on, I’ll wait…

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Today’s relationships lack openness, and so everyone just ends up in these no name, confusing situations where you’re wondering what you are, if you even are a “thing” or if the “thing” is headed anywhere at all.

If you’re perfectly fine with a “thing” being unnamed, unmoving and unclear, go right ahead, luv! #DoYouBoo.

Personally, I think a conversation needs to be had when a relationship/thing is still young, just so that he’s not planning a wedding while you’re just looking for the relief of an itch.

Don’t be afraid to DTR (define the relationship) just because it makes things “real”. Life IS real, so this ends up being pointless. 

2. Honesty really is the best policy – If i ask you “Bruh, you single?” Don’t tell me “Yes” when you know you’re holed up in your baby mama’s apartment with your 3 kids and a promise ring on her finger (Because let’s be real… these type of men don’t actually propose.) If you’re currently in a relationship, even if it’s just a “thing” BE CLEAR ABOUT IT. Ain’t nobody got time for #fckboys.

3. #DontWasteMyTime2016 – Does this even need explanation? I’m a firm believer in “everything happens of a reason” and taking every situation in life as a lesson or a stepping stone, and after being in a “thing” for over a year that didn’t work out (Not because of any misunderstandings, “things” tend to just not work out), I’m really not here for the time wasting.

And just because a girl says she doesn’t want to waste her time doesn’t mean she expects you to marry her, have her kids and live happily ever after. It simply means she wants to see if your relationship has the potential to be more than a “thing”.

4. Stop looking for an out before you’re even in – BIG ONE with our generation. We’re so caught up in the “what if it doesn’t work out?” and “What if he doesn’t feel the same way?” or “what if I look stupid because I caught ‘feels’?” that we miss the bigger picture. We miss all that something could be, because we’re so caught up in what may happen or who may think we’re insane.

News flash – Love IS insane! It’s selfless and patient and kind and all the things we’re naturally engineered to be, but trained not to be.  No wonder it’s so hard. Doesn’t mean it isn’t worth it.

5. Take the dive, it’s okay. – If by some miracle you do happen to escape the chains of “what if” and fall in love, don’t be afraid to just dive in and swim. If it works out, you won’t regret it. If it doesn’t, it may hurt for a little but you’d have learned what you needed to, in order to prepare you to fall in love again.  Take the chance, I promise you it’s worth it.

Moral of the story: Be straight with people. Say what you mean, mean what you say. Openness is next to happiness.

 

#QOTD: “What if I fall?”  “Oh, but my darling, what if you fly?” – Erin Hanson

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It’s Not Mental Health Day but…

Let’s just be real… let’s just be honest.

(This paragraph has everything to do with the blog but nothing at all.) I’ve just finished watching last Thursday’s episode of Tamar & Vince. I watched how Tamar pushed herself completely. She felt sick but nothing could hold her back. Her illness turned out to be a lot worse than she thought it was and in the end she had to completely slow down. I’ve always said that Tamar is my spirit animal… I enjoy that.

Tonight as I watched her push above and beyond herself, I tried to pep talk myself into doing the same thing. The more I tried to curve my “inner voice” into cheering for myself, is the more tired and depressed I felt.

I’ve experienced depression before. What they don’t tell you is that one person can experience depression in different forms. Having gone through depression through majority of my teen years, I’m not sure if I can say which is worse. The past of not wanting to live and doing almost everything in my power to not be here, or wanting to live and be something and make something of myself but just not having the strength or the will to get off the couch.

There are people counting on me. I have teens that look up to me, in and outside of church. I have friends that rely on me to be there for them in their time of need. I have several jobs that need me to finish what I’ve started. I have several books and movies that are desperately waiting to be taken from the turmoil of my mind to the black and white of paper and ink.

But as I sit here with mixture of nicotine and menthol stinging the back of my tongue, I wonder what everyone would think of me if I just stopped. Not because I wanted to, but because I’d reached my end. My spirit wants to fight… I’m a warrior… that side of me can’t help but be who she is. But my body is currently playing “follow the leader” with my mind and right now my mind says stop.

My inner turmoil isn’t just the anxiety dancing around to the beat of the 10 million questions booming around in my head, it’s the inner battle between my warrior spirit and my wary mind. This dance has been going on for a long time, I just haven’t been moving to its beat. And now, it’s caught up with me. The exhaustion, the fatigue, the fight – it’s all caught up with me.

The questions have gotten louder and there is no way to answer them. The dance has gotten faster and there’s no way to slow it down. Each day I only grow older and each day I feel less purposeless… or less like I’m accomplishing my purpose (not really sure which one). What is my purpose, anyway? Why am I here? Why are we all here? What’s the point of it all? How many of us leave this earth without having these questions answered?

I’m not really sure where I’m going with this…

I needed to write… I want to write a work of fiction but it’s all happening too quickly in my head so I needed to write the truth. This is what happens behind the mask. This is what you don’t all see.