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Life Blog: Work the Deck

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We live in a time period where everybody wants everything and they all want it right now. We’re so plugged into social media where people only show the best portions of their lives and we convince ourselves that only what we see on Instagram is real life. Then, we get angry when we can’t pop bottles or take yachts out with our girlfriends or go on vacations in Cancun with our soulmate.  We’re so hung up on people’s lives that we get frustrated with our own, believing that life owes us something.

News flash! Life owes you absolutely nothing.gasp

My advice to you: Work the deck. 

Every deck has fifty-two cards. We may have been dealt a bad hand initially, but at the end of the day we all have access to the same fifty-two cards. Some may have to work harder to swap out their Jokers for Kings, but the Kings are still present. Learn to work the deck. 

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  1. If you understand the joker you understand life. The joker card is seen as the most useless card in the deck. Majority of card games don’t use the joker and so it is cast aside. However, sometimes the things that seem the most useless in life are the things that teach us the most valuable lessons. If you’ve never had a Joker card it can be hard to appreciate the King.source
  2. Don’t be phased by someone else’s hand. Some people are dealt a great hand but they waste it and end up with a losing game. While on the flip side some people have a hand full of jokers but they work their way up to a royal flush. What makes the difference is how we play the game. We all enter the world the same, but how we exit is up to us. What do you want people to remember? Who do you want to impact? What do you want to change for the better? These answers are all up to you.
  3. We are all here to please an audience of One – the true Ace. If you want your hand to improve you need to focus on the Ace in the deck. Even if you have a hand full of jokers, having an Ace can make all the difference in your hand. Get familiar with your Ace and even if you have to drop every other card in your hand, hold on to your Ace. This will be the thing that drives you and gives you purpose – the ruler of the deck and the reason for the game.

In essence, the outcome of your life is in your hands once you know how to utilize what you have. We all come from different backgrounds and go through varying degrees of shitty experiences, but in the end ensure whatever happens in your life that you CAN control is your decision. Work the deck. Play the game. Finish on top. 

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From a Living Single: The Talking Phase

I remember being in prep school and learning about the water cycle and thinking just how simple it was because each stage had a distinct purpose. I remember thinking: “I’ll never forget this!” because it was so straightforward. If only we could apply this concept to every area of our daily lives… especially our dating lives. It seems as if every time I go to bed and wake up, a new phase of the dating process appears.

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I’m well aware that I’ve already done a blog about “21st Century Dating Rules” but my generation truly continues to confuse me. Maybe I’m just a little old school, but this new phase of dating that’s not really “dating” but you’re not exactly “just friends” but you’re not “exclusively committed” to each other but also not into an “open relationship” is hella confusing. This, from what I gather is the “talking” phase.

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My head is spinning just writing all of that, so how do people actually live it out? If the case is that you’ve just met and you’re slightly interested but not sure that you truly want to get into a committed relationship then I believe it’s fine to test the waters a little. The truth is after 3 dates and conversing with each other if you’re still not sure you want to actually “date” this person then you need to just move on.

Ladies and gentlemen, if you’ve been “talking” to somebody for 5 months, that person is not serious about your feelings, your growth or you. They’re literally taking you for a big claffy and are very likely “talking” to other people as well. 

So what can we do to fix this entire confusing phase of “talking”? Glad you asked!

  1. BE COMPLETELY HONEST WITH YOUR DATE. Figure out what stage of the relationship you are in by having an open and honest conversation. Just because someone asks you “Where is this going?” or “What are we doing?” doesn’t mean they’re ready to get married next week. Chill out and be mature about your answers. As I’ve previously mentioned, that gray area is fine for someone you’ve just met and are just getting to know but the truth is even after you’re married you’ll still be learning about your spouse. If you’re afraid to commit because you haven’t known them for years, you’ll forever be waiting to settle down. People are always evolving and always changing and if you’re with somebody that cannot change, they’re stifling your growth. Run.
  2. LONELINESS IS NOT AN EXCUSE. If you’re lonely get a pet. If your only reason for “talking” to the person that you’re currently involved with is to quell your loneliness, I suggest you listen to Tweet, read some Christine Feehan, spend some time with God or visit your nearest library for their best self help book. Being lonely is not a good enough reason to want to date, especially since loneliness is an internal issue. And if you just need company for dinner or someone to warm your bed a few nights a week there are apps for that. Don’t string along a good person just because you have an itch that needs attention.
  3. IT’S OKAY TO PACE YOURSELF. The rationale for “talking” came about because people are afraid of rushing into something they are not completely sure about. This is why I believe in pacing yourself and – prepares for the lynch mob – dating around. Jamaica doesn’t present a dating culture but I praise the places that do. Contrary to popular belief, dating around doesn’t necessarily mean you’re sleeping around. When you choose to date around however, it is important to be very honest with the people you are dating. Let them know they aren’t the only one that has caught your eye. Usually by the end of date number 1 you know whether or not you would like to keep in contact with the person and this helps to extend your gray area a tad bit. Once you decide to commit, stay committed.

I don’t pretend to be a relationship coach but the fact is relationships are hard enough as it is, let’s stop complicating them even more.

#KillTheTalkingPhase2017

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Redirect: Change the Conversation

Disclosure

13|13|22.

No, these aren’t my measurements, but they are numbers that are forever etched in my mind. These were my ages when I had ‘unwanted sexual advances’ brought up against me. And yes, that is my very careful way of putting it because though years into my recovery it’s still hard to call it what it really is.

One in three…

I’m not sure if this is a false sense of bravado brought on by the fact that I’m currently in pre-production for a film about sex trafficking in Jamaica. Or if it’s due me forcing myself to sit through the video for “Til it Happens to You” by Lady Gaga… five times… or if it’s because I’ve just finished watching the documentary “The Hunting Ground” and seen how two college girls’ survivor stories changed the USA. Whichever it is, I sincerely hope that by tomorrow when people start reading this I won’t be overcome with fear, delete it and pretend as if it never happened.

It happened. Three times. By three different people. Stranger Danger was not my story, and this realisation is what struck me the hardest. These were all people I knew and trusted and that didn’t matter. What was more shocking is that I’m 98% sure that two of these three people had little to no idea that what they did was wrong, let alone a crime.

[For clarity – since I am doing this blog – I will not speak of the first incident (which also happened to be the most traumatic and damaging), the second I was held down and forcefully groped in public and the third I was pinned to a bed and held against my will…for nearly an hour]

As a girl growing up I got all the talks – don’t go to places with people you don’t know, be careful what you wear on the street, don’t take drinks from strangers, don’t leave your drink open and come back to it, follow your instincts, don’t take unmarked taxis, don’t be afraid to scream for help…  

The Problem

I didn’t grow up with boys but I wonder if they get a similar talk and similar warnings? Personally, I’m sick of how barely reactive we are to issues of sexual assault and abuse. I’m also really tired of females being blamed and being badgered with questions like “What were you wearing?” “Were you drunk?” If clothes were the issue 1. Men wouldn’t be raped and 2. Women who live in places that require them to be covered from head to toe also wouldn’t have an issue with rape.

It’s time we start having conferences for rape prevention specifically designed for men. It should be just decent behaviour to know not to invade someone’s intimate space unless you’re invited, everybody should know that. But when we are constantly being bombarded with sex-this and sex-that, something is bound to stick the wrong way. Now, don’t misunderstand me, in NO WAY am I excusing what these men/boys did, I’m simply saying there is a huge piece of the puzzle that we are missing and are refusing to acknowledge.

It’s time to change the conversation and remove the blaming spotlight from the victims. The only thing we should be highlighting about the victims is becoming survivors and healing from the trauma.

Healing

Healing is possible, but it’s gradual, painful and continuous. Some days it feels like you take one step forward and fifty steps back, but the key is to keep pressing forward. I’m not at the same place I was ten years ago and that’s because of a combination of spirituality (God cares…), intense therapy, medication and an amazing support team. Your combination may be different but I need you to know IT WILL GET BETTER. Yes, it will take some time, yes there will be times when you feel like there’s no progress, sometimes you’ll wonder if you will ever not be “damaged”.

I just need you to know more than anything that there is hope. You can overcome and you will live an amazing, fulfilling life.

Take care of you. You’re not a victim, you’re a survivor.

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Below are the links to a few websites that were resourceful to me:

https://www.rainn.org/ (mostly useful for those in the US)

http://www.pandys.org/ – literally saved my life a few times.

Don’t be afraid to reach out to me. I’m happy to just be a listening ear.

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From a Living Single: Love Can’t Pay the Bills…

“Love can’t carry me to the supermarket.” – Unknown

And indeed, truer words have never been spoken. Now, I already know many may disagree with me, or even dislike me after reading this blog, but again these are solely my opinions and you can either take it or leave it.

I remember once watching an episode of Tyra, and her topic was “Should you marry for love or money?” And a couple she had on the show stood out to me to this day.

The woman had admittedly gone into the relationship only because she knew the man was financially secure.

The man had gone into the relationship simply because she was smart and beautiful and he wanted a ‘PYT’ on his arm.

They had both agreed that this would be the dynamic of their relationship and hence if he ever went bankrupt she would leave him… interestingly enough he was okay with this.

They were married for some amount of years, had children and seemed to be quite happy with each other.

The wife admitted that she had never been physically attracted to him (she went as far as comparing him to a lawn gnome), but again the husband was totally fine with it.

Both parties were holding up their side of the bargain and it seemed to be working perfectly for them.

#RelationshipGoals or nah?

Before I continue I have one question for my readers: Would you marry for money? 

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  1. According to divorce.usu.edu one of the leading causes of divorce is the issue of money, more specifically “less income”. Though “less income” may not always be the case, if money is already an issue in your relationship it certainly doesn’t help if you’re broke. #JustSayin

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2. Being in love, broke and content is not necessarily a good thing. – If for whatever reason you’re both unemployed, your top priority should be trying to find ways to get out of that situation. If you’re in a relationship where you’re both happy and comfortable being unemployed because “all you need is each other” RUN.

Your spouse should be the person pushing you to be greater than you currently are, not helping you to settle into your mediocrity.

If this is the future you have to look forward to, you’re better off single and broke.

3. Don’t get married on a zero dollar bank account – When you said the words “I do,” the words that precede was a commitment to stand by each other through thick and thin. Though this is true, you shouldn’t be striving to start your marriage on the “thin.”

If by some unfortunate luck of the draw one of you loses your job, the other spouse should be able to pick up the slack without having too much of a struggle. Again, I’m not saying this as a rule, but it certainly does make the process easier and will give you one less thing to argue about.

4. Having said all of that, my forth, final and probably most important point is Money cannot substitute for love or happiness. If your goal is to marry for money ONLY, I advise you to pause and think about your life.

Though I believe you can grow to love someone (seeing as though love is an action first and an emotion after) you cannot force someone to love you. Marrying a man or woman for their bank account does not guarantee you respect, protection, affection or guarantee them to be good partners, parents or lovers – which are all very important in a marriage.

If being financially stable in a relationship is going to cost you your peace and happiness, is it really worth it?

 

 

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From a Living single: #WasteHisTime2016

As I make this confusing, frustrating journey through my twenties, there are a few things I’d like to share with you, just so that you don’t:

(a) make the same mistakes I do and

(b) learn a thing or two about what a 23 year old in 2016 may experience.

So, buckle up, you’re in for a helluva ride! #FromALivingSingle

 

I’ve come to the realisation that people like to make life a lot more complicated than it really is. No, like seriously, I’m starting to wonder if we do it out of habit or spite. This time in particular I’m talking about the age old topic of romance.

Now, I know you think you’ve heard it all before and what I have to say may be nothing particularly new, but I want to take the time to remind people of simple things in relationships/dating that may make the entire process 50 times easier. Grab your pens and papers boys and girls, mama’s giving notes!

  1. Chivalry isn’t dead, but openness is. – I dare you to tell me I’m lying. Go on, I’ll wait…

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Today’s relationships lack openness, and so everyone just ends up in these no name, confusing situations where you’re wondering what you are, if you even are a “thing” or if the “thing” is headed anywhere at all.

If you’re perfectly fine with a “thing” being unnamed, unmoving and unclear, go right ahead, luv! #DoYouBoo.

Personally, I think a conversation needs to be had when a relationship/thing is still young, just so that he’s not planning a wedding while you’re just looking for the relief of an itch.

Don’t be afraid to DTR (define the relationship) just because it makes things “real”. Life IS real, so this ends up being pointless. 

2. Honesty really is the best policy – If i ask you “Bruh, you single?” Don’t tell me “Yes” when you know you’re holed up in your baby mama’s apartment with your 3 kids and a promise ring on her finger (Because let’s be real… these type of men don’t actually propose.) If you’re currently in a relationship, even if it’s just a “thing” BE CLEAR ABOUT IT. Ain’t nobody got time for #fckboys.

3. #DontWasteMyTime2016 – Does this even need explanation? I’m a firm believer in “everything happens of a reason” and taking every situation in life as a lesson or a stepping stone, and after being in a “thing” for over a year that didn’t work out (Not because of any misunderstandings, “things” tend to just not work out), I’m really not here for the time wasting.

And just because a girl says she doesn’t want to waste her time doesn’t mean she expects you to marry her, have her kids and live happily ever after. It simply means she wants to see if your relationship has the potential to be more than a “thing”.

4. Stop looking for an out before you’re even in – BIG ONE with our generation. We’re so caught up in the “what if it doesn’t work out?” and “What if he doesn’t feel the same way?” or “what if I look stupid because I caught ‘feels’?” that we miss the bigger picture. We miss all that something could be, because we’re so caught up in what may happen or who may think we’re insane.

News flash – Love IS insane! It’s selfless and patient and kind and all the things we’re naturally engineered to be, but trained not to be.  No wonder it’s so hard. Doesn’t mean it isn’t worth it.

5. Take the dive, it’s okay. – If by some miracle you do happen to escape the chains of “what if” and fall in love, don’t be afraid to just dive in and swim. If it works out, you won’t regret it. If it doesn’t, it may hurt for a little but you’d have learned what you needed to, in order to prepare you to fall in love again.  Take the chance, I promise you it’s worth it.

Moral of the story: Be straight with people. Say what you mean, mean what you say. Openness is next to happiness.

 

#QOTD: “What if I fall?”  “Oh, but my darling, what if you fly?” – Erin Hanson

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Grief is not a competition

I hate the fact that I have to use a time and a platform such as this to speak on this issue but i feel i must address this now.

It is with the sad passing of 3 legends during this week that it has come to my realisation that social media has become a place to compete over whose grief is stronger than whose and why we shouldn’t be grieving in the first place.

Not even a full thirty minutes after the news of Nelson Mandela’s passing and people were already tweeting and posting about how “ungrateful” and “hypocritical” some were because they did not share the same kind of outrage with Paul Walker’s tragic death. As if to compare “whose death is bigger than whose.” It is absolutely ridiculous.
Firstly, you cannot rate the impact of a person’s life or death by the feedback from social media. It is illogical. Both men lived different lives – though they shared some similarities – and were known to the world on completely different platforms. Their lives cannot and should not be compared.

Secondly, the way Mandela died and the way Walker died is going to bring different reactions simply because 1 was more sudden and tragic (not to say that 1 death means more, which is what people have been saying) than the other.

Third and finally, people on social media really need to get off of their high horses saying that people are “fake grieving” because they knew neither of these people and only care because they were celebrities (should I even respond to this?)

Grief and death is not a contest nor a competition. Stop trying to bully people into feeling the way you feel just because they don’t share your feelings. It’s disgusting, annoying and plain childish. Grow up.

Paul, you brought smiles to peoples faces all around the world with your rolls on the Fast & Furious movies. You inspired us with your career and graced us with your humility. May your legacy go on to inspire many others and your charity be kept alive to aid those in need. Rest well with the angels.

Mandela, you made a huge impact not only on South Africa or black people but people of all different nations and races around the world. A true example of a role model and standing up for what you know is right, even at the cost of imprisonment and possibly death. Your life was well lived and will be well remembered. May your soul rest in peace and your lessons never be forgotten. 

 

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IT’S OVER!

Hello loves!

So I haven’t posted in a while, maybe two weeks (I’m not quite sure) because I’ve been working on final projects and presentations for the semester. I’m pretty much finished except for one final project I’m still working on for my radio course (Best course ever!) and I’m thoroughly enjoying this assignment. Can you believe it? I’m actually admitting to liking school work. That’s it, I’m declaring myself a changed woman.

But since second year is pretty much over I’m celebrating early by waking up at 12 in the afternoon and not having breakfast until 2. That’s the life right thuur maan.

What I’m most excited about though (apart from the immense amount of free time i now have on my hands) is the fact that no school = more time to write, read and watch tv shows! So yeah, pretty much all the things I’d much rather spend my time doing. So expect more blogs from me for the next 2 months (at least, I might be busier in July) and more updates.

Love,

xo Alee.

Currently Reading: Salvation in Death – JD Robb

Currently Obsessed with: nail hardener and mint flavoured lip gloss

Can’t hear enough of: Mirrors by Justin Timberlake and Heart Attack by Demi LovatoImage